Monday, March 21, 2016

vexation to my spirit


instead of sleeping, I am remembering how policemen failed to help me protect my children, how they could look me in the eyes and say; "it's a domestic dispute" when he abducted my baby.

if the police are not here to keep an oath to provide for the defense of innocent children, what ARE they here for? I was doing everything possible to uphold the oath I had with God when he entrusted my baby to my care....... from the moment she was conceived. Parenting is an awesome responsibility, and I completely understood that. There was never anything more important to me than the lives of my children.

How could his paternity be an excuse for the damage he was doing to my baby? She was not property. She was an innocent and totally defenseless toddler. His depravity was all that mattered to him, what he wanted and what his lusts demanded. Innocence and defenselessness had no meaning to him.

Power over a small victim does not, and never will, make anyone into a man. It destroys humanity. He thumbs his nose at all that is decent and good in life, and at God who gave him life. This creature is not man, but beast. Not only damaging those in his grasp, but long afterwards, ruining any real chance of a normal future for all those in his wake.

That is in no way true power, but the ugliest imitation of power; wanton destruction and violation. The torment should turn in on himself. His beard being the only mask to keep him from looking at the foul creature he is deep within as he faces a mirror.

Surely, God will turn his back on him in his hour of need. That would be a mercy for me and the children he harmed. We need mercy.